New Years Resolutions

Everyone makes them. New years Resolutions.
What do we make them for?


Well this is the part that makes it so interesting. we set goals for our life every year. known as our resolutions and usually we want to stick to them. They're there for us to aim higher or work towards a better future. 
Last year i set some for myself and completely went against them because i got myself hurt again but due to a Gemini Horoscope i'm actually looking forward to my next year and have high hopes for a relationship i'm working on. 
And something I'm also happy about in the next year, My 18th! :) 
i think its safe to say it'll be a big one for me. but Anyhow. Resolutions are there for us to make ourselves feel better and keep us in a little bubble like quitting smoking to stop you from dying or lung cancer for future etc. 

This year, My Resolutions are...

1. Make an effort to look better.

2.Pay more attention and do the homework at college. Woops.

3. Make LOADS of new friends even though my facebook is over 1'000...

4. Work hard in this relationship, DO NOT FUCK IT UP. lol

5. Homework first not facebook. :')

6. Respect Parents and Friends, etc. again Woops.

7. MOVE OUT OF MUMS HOUSE. ((Priority 1))

8. Dye hair red =D yes i am looking forward to this one!

9. Get tongue pierced.

& finally 10. Be more organised 

p.s. stop being so obsessed with some things. ha.

Chrimblemas ♥

When it comes to this time of year, everyone prepares for one day...well two days if you want to include new year but everyone knows when in December the best holiday to come to mind would be Christmas Day.

I'm no Scrooge but i have to say the past couple of years christmas day has NEVER been a good day or time of the year for me.  But this year is turning out to be a little different. 

I think it might just be slightly different this year :) which is kinda nice. 

Last year i got a laptop, this year... a camera. :D which i'm well looking forward to getting! 

I also get to spend the evening with someone wonderful. Mister You-Know-Who. 

oh yes tomoro should be amazing. 

including Dr Who special. ♥ 

Commmennt!??!???!?!!

Rate out of ten and comment please. this is from a recent shoot with TM models. let me know what you think... there website it in the link bar :) 

Well i'm back!

Oops. i do believe i am back at home. Due to EXTREME weather conditions stupid national express cancelled my coach to beautiful canterbury. so i'm back here and considering i might not go because i could get stranded.
and i'd rather not get stranded for christmas. i'd like to be home!

See You on saturday! Have a Good Chrimblemass!

Hey all you Bloggers. 
I'm leaving tomoro :( not for good no you can't get rid of me that easily. but just to my dads to go visit for the hols. Then should be back for christmas eve day... yes that is a mouthful to say.

Should be a good time away i think. however i will miss everyone who makes me happy here.. not cool.
but i get to visit my daddy and Lisa and Ellie and Blake AND dylan :) 
so i'm happy i get to see them all and catch up and tell them about the things i've been doing etc. 

You don't need to be at a party to be having a good time :) you need a good friend some interesting conversations and a drink in you're hand to have a good time. 
Happiness isn't needed through people or through drinking or music and parties. its found in whatever you enjoy doing.
i have some great friends with amazing ways of cheering me up! 

frickin hell i miss him like crayz :(

I'm actually still going to hope this is a part in you're plan baby to be back with me. :'(
this will only make us stronger.

from now on. focus on me being happy without you x

Dedication to you m'dear♥

Let me show you the amazing Christopher Alan Bunce i fell in love with.

When i first met him he was this stupidly over confident, slightly cocky but a lovely guy.

and i'd not taken a second glance at him after first meeting him. But still managed to find out his name to add him on facebook ;)

Talked to him once, maybe twice. 

Then out of the blue i was at my dads and we started talking through facebook.

Ahh the joys of facebook, matchmaker you must be to SO many people?

But, we took a big liking to each other instantly.

We made plans to go to the cinema on Tues, 5th March 2010.

I never thought we'd be here in 10 months time hopelessly in love with each other.

but i thought, no, this wont go anywhere. Its just a date.

Avatar. 3.30 p.m :) 

Not the most romantic film i must say but it was a film i wanted to go and see, and it was a coincidence he wanted to see it too. ha ha

the film was fantastic and it wasn't until the end that we kissed. 

It wasn't just a kiss...

 It was a moment in my life where i'd found a miracle in the making.

So yes, on with the story.

 The next day i saw him at college and spend break with him while he held my hand and ate :') he he 

Wednesday, 6th March 2010.

He asked me out with an ultimatum. the first day i felt like i could trust him and knew i might for a long time no matter what he did. and i still do.

He lied. i'm still here. he cheated. i'm still here. he's broke my heart. i'm still here.

and i think its safe to say he's still here with me too♥

Specially after last night.

He has this smile where you know he's joking about, the smile that when he's serious. and then the one where you can see he really happy. i've seen them all.

His hair never falls right when he messes with it but when you've been lying down with him then you decide to sit up, his hair looks perfect without him touching it. 

Christopher, has this way of telling you things, he wont ever give a straight answer but he'll make damn well sure you know what he wants you to know and think.

He'll pretend he's fine when you can see something's bothering him.

He's outgoing because he can be. and i love the confidence he builds up and its a wall he hides behind.

If he doesn't like something he'll let you know. 

he is too clever for his own good!

and whether he knows it or not he'll always steal girls hearts.

he's loving, smiley, funny, outgoing, sarcastic, and sweet.

he's everything i could ever dream of. and i've had that. 

It'll come back to me ♥

this will be my last post until i feel as though i'm making progress.

my hearts in a really horrible place nowadays. not because of chris. just because of myself. i've got myself into this mess. i'm gonna stop posting on here until i feel like i'm ready too. i've had my heart broken. trampled on and thrown aside because Chris doesn't know what he wants. i want him back and i thought i could do everything in my power to win him back but tbh. i don't need to win him back. he'll come back when i'm normal me again. this feeling has totally taken over me and its too much. i need to step back and look at whats happened and what damage has been done and see if i can repair it.
Before he can even think of taking me back i need to change for the better and stop letting this take over me like it has been. i've been obsessive, a liar, a cheat. and i hate myself for it. well i hate my old self for it. i will turn everything around but i don't know if it'll get him to come back to me.
I don't know if i'll ever fall out of love with him or if he will fall out of love with me but we'll wait and see.
For now Goodbye readers, and i do hope you see the changed me in a few months times.

And just so you all know, even you christopher.. I do love him with all my heart. i'd do anything for him at the moment. his kisses are bliss and making love to him meant everything to me, it was never just sex. even now after 9 months he's still kind of putting up with me. its amazing what i've put him through and he's still here. it must be love. he said i made him happy once, i'm pretty sure i could make him happy again. Maybe it'll be as a friend. i think i'll always love him. even when i know its too late. which i haven't quite felt the full blown of just yet.
Until i see the day he loves someone else i don't think i'll have it hit me so hard that it'll make me finally say "i've had enough".
I Just need to get beetter and maybe he'll come back to me. who knows. lets just wait and see.



Goodbye for now.
Love you all  :)
Ciao...xoxo
You're one and only Jasmin Sund.

David Archuleta - Crush Lyrics

he was mine once. and now he's everybody's.

he was mine once. and now he's everybody's.

Scream.

omfg its still getting to me. its been what, three weeks? and its still getting me angry. i don't even want to hug him without thinking about that girl having her hand all over him? why the hell is it still stuck in my mind???
its getting worse. itss not a feeling i want in me because it makes me want to kill someone. and i'm not on about metaphorically anymore. its a bad bad anger that will do something stupid to someone around me. he doesn't care he's done it though. he really doesn't. it doesn't phase him how much is angers me!? trust is one thing but thats what made us break up. that and other contributors. 

Love, Save The Empty Official Video by Erin McCarley

I love Christopher Alan Bunce very much!

Triumph!

i totally love this! i actually managed to succeed in distracting myself with talking to old friends, playing solitaire and i managed to not speak to Chris for three hours while he was out in town! i'm so proud of myself. like actually! i'm so so proud.

And not to mention got my sexy new boots today! oh how they made my feet orgasm!
something to tick off my christmas list. now what's left is camera and money :D with new high heels...

so yes. accomplishment! and i feel quite happy :) so i'm going to bed with a smile on my face and i get to talk to him tomoro morning. should put a bigger smile on my face again.

www.facebook.com/Jasblondie

My facebook that now exsists for everyone.
then i have my personal one...
Jasmin Sund

Have fun deciding which one you deserve to be on.

you're actually quite annoying, you know when you dangle me on the edge and now i don't even know if i want to see you!? grr boy you anger me.

yes i am scared of loosing you to be honest. no i really don't want to. and yes i would like to think that forever is possible.

yes i am scared of loosing you to be honest. no i really don't want to. and yes i would like to think that forever is possible.

why is it agony not knowing if he's ok? i'm picturing him crying in corner :( i don't want him to be hurt. i don't want him to be in pain. why do i feel this way?

Erik Hassle - Hurtful

Just don't get upset and carry on calling. he'll miss you in time. and you know he has to talk to you eventually you have his money. yeah ok you lied to protect him? i have no idea to be honest.  
Nevermind just call him later and see what happens. he'll forgive you :) 

well that was a strange but interesting thing to wake up to. lol a call at 6 a.m telling me they haven't been asleep all night. Well what can i say i was up til 2ish and god knows how because i was only playing on chess! ha ha.
i've recently discovered a newblog that caught my eye, hey everybody check it out :)

www.itslikeacarcrash.blogspot.com

p.s my mum snores like an elephant. ha!


Ciao xoxo

Woopahh!

you seriously need to stop telling me you love me now that we're not together because its keeping me here attached to you.

i've actually had a really nice evening. not the day but everything else has been good :)
sorted through a whole load of old shit from when i was like 12! ha ha.
and a lovely conversation to end it all.

night night you bloggers!

Ciao xoxo ♥

some wise badger

You are what you do - not what you think

"When one door of happiness closes, another one opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."

Nothing gives one person so much advantage over another as to remain cool and unruffled under all circumstances."

Live life as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.

her

he's only doing this for us to get back together :) i know he is

♥

Fuck it :) everyones gonna see it anyways! :L

You are so beautiful why don't you just see that? ♥

I'm Praying to God that by New Years or Christmas i'm back with Christopher ♥

a fresh start.

This may take a while but i'm going to do it because i might like the outcome.
yesterday i was told several things by the guy/man/boy that i love.
things that i knew would crush me but i think i know how to deal with it now.
but i know what i've done wrong too. i've cheated and lied to him. and obviously,
now that i'm loosing him, i regret it. he told me yesterday he liked someone else. i nearly collapsed.
i don't think i could take the pain. This next week will be hell for me trying to mend bridges and fix
holes. but it has to be done. all i want is to be a better person right now, not only for myself but for
others sake too.
if i actually want to be successful at teenage life and not fuck it up more than i have done in the past months or my 17th/16th years. i will change for my well being, for chris, to prove to everyone i'm not who they think i am and to prove i will no longer be the old me.

Ok i may have lied :/

When i said 'if Chris sleeps with someone else i would walk away and never forgive him. I lied. I don't care if he did now that he has told me he has. I just want to be with him forever. I don't care what he does to me along the way all i want is him and me to be happy together. :(

i hope you do go shag someone else, so i can be the one that walks away and has the last laugh when people tell me i told ya so.

Halloween, Nose Piercings and Happiness

Halloween ♥

New Nose Peircing ♥

Just before we got back together ♥

Whipped?

"""""Jasmin I love you dearly I dnt want to live my life without u n I think me staying with u is going to b gd for u if u cn jst trust me then u cn hapy n like niki said if u trust me I wil treat u lyk royalty I cn promise u I wil give u everything under the sun I'm not gna cheat or lie I believe u won't either like I said rite down everything u havnt told me yet so we cn finaly have clean conciounce each that's we both need mines 3 jst need ures to be, I have neva loved sOme one lyk I love you trust me jasmin x x x x x x x""""






Whipped ♥

funnies thing thats happened to me recently. i went out with my boyfriend last night. we saw one of his friends, Nicola. we then get invited back to hers, have a few drinks and get really drunk. i took a few pills cried a few tears. big fucking woop. but, here's the twist. a three way kiss happened between me, my boyfriend and this girl. i knew a while back he got her number, for whatever reason it is unknown but a three-way kiss should be equal. its not equal when you can't feel you're boyfriend's tongue anywhere near yours. THATS when you should be worried. because quite frankly...that my friends is called cheating...
uh-huh..


& Goodbye ♥

i dont care if you don't love me. i love you

The crazy Life i lead....

There's Chris. He's the guy i'm head over heels in love with.
There's my crazy family which consists of;

Mum♥

Ollie ♥

Dylan, Ellie & Blake ♥ 

Then Lisa & Dad ♥

• Then there's the friends...Peter, Jacob, Jade & Jessie 
• Also the people who are just friends and not best friends but we'll get to those later ;)
• However i have enemies and a lot of them. So thats my last point.

R.I.P Crissuity

Its a horrible thing death. When some poor creature or human has lived its last breathe and can no longer go on for a problem in their body. My poor rat Crissuity just died in my hand today 01/11/2010 at 16.50p.m.
i think i'll regret never really handling her enough because i took for granted how precious she was. i did love her to bits. RIP....

list in order the top 5 people u love ?

erm its slightly asque. but Christopher, My Sister, My brother, Friends and erm mum and dad?

asssskkkkk mee, most things :)

Sexy Mo'foo's

                                                     Taylor Momsen....a fashion Goddess ♥

                                                     The Oh-So Mysterious Kaya Scodelario ♥

These Women are two of some of my many inspirations. They're Unique. Fashionable. and have everyone's attention when they walk down the street. How these girls amaze me :') x

A Lesson Of Love

Watch from 7.09 minutes in and you'll see Brooke and Julian :)

Don't you just hate it when people don't reply? especially when they tell you someone in the pub they're working in has got a problem with you and has the capablity of smashing your head in? yep i'm worried. x

i feel really rather crummy.

ok so christopher's birthday is next week and i feel pretty shit because he wants to go with all the girls coming on a pole. Putting in a short version.

Yes i know he loves me. and i was feeling brilliant a few days ago because i managed to break through a barrier that i never thought i'd over come. but i have, and i'm proud to say on my own. lol.
But for the past week or maybe two, there has been some very big up's and down's. Recently having got engaged, he feels like its too soon to get married. And i don't actually think he's right for once. It doesn't feel right to just stop it all. However he has told me that he'd like to still be engaged.
Being engaged isn't going to help us with our insecurities. But i feel like it'll make us happier. and its both what we want? isn't it?
So i'm left now confused and dazed unsure what to do with myself when i see him or think about it when i'm with him.

this is to be continued....

Seriously No idea how I've got this far tbh.
After All the break-up's & all the arguments & the fall outs,  I'm now Engaged to My Christopher.
I didn't honestly think this would ever go far especially not to begin with. Yeah we've had our fights and yeah we're both Extremely young, but we're happy. and I've never felt this strongly about a guy before. Nothing ever this intense. I suppose I've come close a few time's before but nothing ever as amazing and incredible as this.

We've both done our fair share of things, of which neither of us are proud of. But now is where I'm forgiving him.  And trusting him. This is both our Last Chance and we know not to throw something away that's so special.

I Love him and He Loves me. Next Year we're getting married. And right now I'm the happiest girl alive.

i love you christopher. nothing's going to mess this chance up, even if people think it's not the right thing to do. i'll be with you forever & always. ♥

i think everything will fall into place now.

i feel, finally, like a weights been lifted off my shoulders. thank you.
i just wish everything would go back to the way they were with you tbh. you were incredible and i takeall the blame for us spliting up again. it was my fault the first time and the second time. who knows what will happen next.

yeah i'm just crying inside.

♥

Word of the day "Wall-e"
coz...Rosa just said it and now I want to watch it :D

This blog has no title for the reason I'm writing about two things at once. Today we went to the zoo and a water park. Called "Dyre Parken" & Badelandet" I'll let you figure out which one is which.
Well i have to say going to the zoo wasn't much fun but i admit i liked to see moose up close. However i did not get to see what i really wanted to see which was the Lynx. They are beautiful.
We saw some peculiar animals today. like squirrel Monkeys and a Cocobarra Bird. Two animals which were very cute but extremely strange in the way they looked.

The water park was bloody brilliant! The water slides were slightly disappointing because some were slow but others were good but dark :') ♥

HOWEVER... the story goes on. today was not so brilliant for miss rosa :( she's had a hangover all day and still has one. which sucks for her and me. the only time i saw her smiling was when we were sliding down water slides together and it was a great buzz :) ♥
Last Night :/ the oh so great day was fine until Kjell turned up drunk at our door. Oh dear. never a good sign. first time he showed up he told Rosa she had nice tits. Second time, he gave us money for credit and asked if Rosa would buy lingerie with it and then take photos! So we could see he took a liking to her instantly. Tbh it was not a good thing. its perverted and quite frankly, Disgusting. Thank god he left us alone for a whole week in the second week. All i have to say is that it was a big mistake because Rosa was then sick and was sick in several places, which still smells right now! :( ergh. (We'll survive...Hopefully) we've cleaned up as much as we can and put all the alcohol that was left here in the fridge. it pisses me off how last night because not only when we were drunk and he was also. He told me "this is your mess to clean up not mine" when he was the one giving us the alcohol and made us very sick. That's Illegal boys and girls so if it happens to you call the police. We haven't done so because of the fact that Kjell is my mum's cousin and gave us this apartment for free. Once you accept a favour you can't go against the person who did that favour for you. So for our revenge. we're making him pay for the stained bed, shrunk bed cover, supplies and alcohol in the fridge. :)


Aint Life A Bitch.. ;) ♥



Ciao xoxo

Arguements

i'm so pissed of non stop about arguments. i have headache after headache because of my boyfriend. tonight, well... lets just say i shouted at him. and he said sorry which is ok. but still didn't get away with the fact no matter how many times i say i don't want to get drunk he orders me to? ok i may have said earlier to him i wanted to. but that was only because i was pissed off and would say anything that was in my head. and instantly i thought because i had a glass of beer that i'd down it because i was pissed off with chris and i'd only just seen what he'd done to piss me off, so without thinking i just did it.
He makes me so mad sometimes. i don't think he realises how much he affects me in certain ways. it was nice of him after a little while on the phone with him that he wrote he was talking to his amazing gf. which made me smile. still didn't help the fact i was getting a MAJOR headache from shouting at him.
i'm a shit girlfriend.

i've never wanted anything more than what i have with you. you're the thrill i need in my life to keep my happy. but your also the romance i need to keep me pulling on the string we're both holding onto. i can hug you and never want to let go because its just pure safety being embraced by you. your kisses keep me coming back for more...like temptation. everlasting lust with passion. i never want this to end. you not only changed a lot of things about my attitude and how i look at life but the way i now look at guys in general. you've been everything, an arse, a dick, a sleeze, liar and a player. but i don't think if i'd gone through those downs with you that i'd be able to be on the highs with you now. a roller coster ride i don't want to stop.

"you make everything funny" - Jasmin Sund 1.16
and you do. your attitude to everything is brilliant, i don't think i'll ever understand it fully but i love it.
you once asked me about why i loved you well this is what's coming from my heart; You are incredible. i think about you every second of everyday since we got back together :')
you've been an epiphany to me. the gateway to my soul and all that other crap (: hehe
i love you because you're different. something nobody else is. because you look it at me like nobody else has and make me feel so special to you and better than what i actually am. you give me confidence when i'm with you. you make me crazy with jealousy because of the things you do but it shows how much i really care. i love you because when you smile i can the difference between i beautiful happy smile and a evil grinning one. you mean the world to me. if i lost you i don't know what i'd do.

i can't get enough of you. its like if you weren't hasselful and you were stress-free i don't hoenstly think i would be with you today. i know we've had some really shit times. but i think that we've had more great times to make up for all of it. like matlock. dinner meeting you're mum for the first time. our first date. our first dance. you being my first few things. knowing i want you to be my first for alot of thingss...and i want to do everything with you. in life, and everything that it entails.
i would like to think we'll be here in 20 years times...

forever and always
Your Jas

xoxox

some video's 'i like'

Keri hilson is brilliant...she also features in "knock you down - Ne-yo ft Kanye West and Keri hilson"



I discovered this guy here in norway. literally ten mins ago! brilliant uniqueness like Kate voegele but a bit like panic at the disco meet with a bit of hip-hop.



could make a very good dubstep version! :D

Scared half to death we had to send plea texts.

Last night we were so scared and stressed about loosing Rosa's purse because we'd thought someone had come into the apartment and stole it, that we had to sleep in the living room, hands held and didn't go to sleep until 5 just as it was getting light. so much for feeling safe.
The one thing that shuck us up the most is that Kjell told us theres a rough couple on the corner down the hill. which didn't help us trying to sleep. we had to shut all the windows and doors and cover all the windows to feel safer. but even then when we went to bed we were very scared.
well so far thats all ♥
ciao xoxo




Miss you Christopher

Listen and enjoy ♥

The Flat

Well the old flat compared to the new flat. the new flat is practically a house and we have two living rooms :D and an amazing bathroom and a MASSIVE tv. and it has the internet so i'm gonna try blog everyday..finally. and to let you all know what i'm up to while in sunny bright norway.

Today me and Rosa have been to the beach :D photos up soon ;)

ciao...xoxo

Norway is beautiful, But a Huge pain in the Bum!

well, i got to the airport got stopped at customs had my camera taken off me and my deoderant!
Got to norway and had no place to stay. then found a place but with no internet. so i'm writing to you from the better than nothing, arendal biblotek. which translates to arendal library. i brought my laptop so i could go on and check my balance of my holiday phone online but then realised i forgot to bring an adapter so i had very little battery power on it, so it died. now i'm sort of hiding from the people who are supposed to lend out the computers because we shouldn't really be on here! oops. anyhow first day here its been lazy but yesterday (half a day) we have a little place to stay, no internet and no food. we then spend 200 Kr on food meaning we spent £20 on crap...again oops. me and rosa will never make it as students (officially)
i have to post my letter to chris today from yesterday and then the one from today and tomoro, tomoro. so that they get there in time. i do hope he still reads this as most posts i post on here will have something to do with him. i wrote in the letter a little something about mine and his future and tbh i think it'll be a good one. i want him to be with me through it all, i want to be his best friend and someone he can talk to. so i've written to him that i would like him to be my lobster.
Those of you who watch friends as frequently as i do will know what it means. Those of you who don't...watch series 2 between episode 30-50 its in one of those where rachel sees the video of ross on her prom night and they get back together because rachel see's how much and for how long he has loved her.
i hope you all read and follow what i put on here it'll be all about my holiday with my beautiful rosa ♥


I love you christopher ♥ missing you muchly xxxxxxxxxxxx

Ciao xoxo

Leaving someone you love behind.

Well tonight i will be leaving for norway for three weeks. away from mister Christopher. which i am not looking forward too. i wish he could come with me tbh. ♥
For now i'm just making the hours last because i'm getting picked up at four by my mum then we're going to pick up rosa. she's coming with finally :D because i've been waiting for her to come on holiday with me to norway for years!!
since my dads with Christopher its been such a bumpy ride. up and down, arguments squabbles etc...and tbh i honestly thought chris was going to dump me because he couldn't see us having a future but i can feel if we spend this time apart its going to make us stroner and bring us closer together.
anyhow since i last wrote on here i've been to my dads, wales and london with synne... its been a great few weeks and i've managed to get my life back on track :) ♥
the next few weeks are gonna be hard baby but i'll be back sooner than you think waiting just to kiss you and hug you ♥
anyhow i plan to have a great time while im in norway.
rosa and me are gonna have the best time ever! :D hopefully i can update this while i'm there and you'll see everything i'm doing :D ♥
Wales was amazing because christopher asked me back out while i was there.
dads was even better because chris came down and met my dad, the first boyfriend i've had to meet my dad. ♥
london was brilliant because i got a new dress and plenty more new things ♥
for now Avouir! :D

xoxoxoxoxoxox