why do i still feel special when i see i'm still in your top friends...i love it and i want to stay there but is it what you want?
i want to keep telling you why...
you told me to give up trying. but thats just it i can't especially after telling me you want to push me away so you can get back with me?
it isn't false hope if you feel that way about someone.
i know you dont want to lead me on but maybe i want you to?
you were literally my everything when i was with you. the one person i'd wake up in the morning wanting to be next to.
i just hope i've not pissed you offso that you never want to see me again..
or that you would want to hurt me. or want nothing to do with me.
there is nothing keeping us from seeing each other however theres nothng thats gonna make us see each other and i dont want to be the one who asks.
i know this might all sound like babble but rght now i'm just trying to get my feelings out... especially for him♥
