JD and i are no longer together. shocker i know. it was perfect, but apparently in my eyes only. a month ago he thought he loved me less and then two weeks later after changing his mind the day after BAM! smack in the face from lover boy. i can't say it was a surprise mind you i felt as though it was coming which is why i kept asking if "we" were ok? the new york trip for him did nothing for our relationship not like in norway and he was in france. it turns out it wasn't meant to be. oh well. C'est la vie JD.
all i can do now is move upwards and onwards. to newer and better things. let me put it this way. i haven't been properly single since i was 13 and now i get the chance to be the person i wasn't and could never be before. the new me is here and is ready to take a chance at being the best at life she can, not thats its a game but i'm pretty sure i know how to play it :)
anyhow the latest updates on these few months events;
one. ofcourse is the breaking up of JD and me. like i said no surprise. i'm hurt yes but to be honest i'd be worried if i wasn't :') right now i dont know how to feel. i guess it's natural to let go slowly and surely so that nothing can get in your mind about having negative or insane thoughts. yes i loved him and i might still now, but like i said very confusing on how i feel. :/ sucksville.
two. i've fallen out with someone at college... ergh another "you've been saying shit about me behind my back" i really dont know how to react on this one because lets face it i'm not going to get in the way if she believes that i've said something. its best to just leave it at that and move on or wait til things cool down. of course i've tried apologising even if i haven't done anything.
three. I have now found an amazing new friend through my bffl. TW (: he's ginger, tall and looks like prince harry i can say he's great to talk to when i have a problem and he was the one getting stuck with all the talk from me after me and JD split.
he's will be an eternally new edition to the list of my best friends.
four. RG's birthday surprise the photoshoot planned out quite well even if it was a disaster beforehand :P "came home tried to unlock the door and it wouldn't budge" stood outside for two hours an hour and a half before the photoshoot.....i was thinking holy fuck. but it turned out alright in the end we got there had an amazing time and now we're viewing the photos in a week's time :) on the way home i might had we ran into a field and got stuck but MR STV came and helped us. he got more for what he was bargaining for i tell you! we went on a date the next night ;) you gotta love fate.
ciao xoxo
