Each Breathe Taken

toes curl with passion, my voice carried through the empty house, chest pulsing vibrating as though i couldn't control it.
i never wanted it to end, if i could've stayed with that moment forever... i knew it wouldn't have lasted but oh well all i can say is i've had experience with that sort of thing and it know how to act once you stop talking.. about yesterdays blog my god i was in trouble with my mum.. i try and find myself by being the rebel behind my mothers back and i mostly get away with it.. until of course when he told her ¬_¬
the reason he told her was cause i called him a little bastard.. its cause he is most of the time to me.. so he told her about C, M, and S, and almost about having to drag him round everywhere for them..
S lives in stafford so i took him on the train...
M lived in chello so i took him on the bus into town then from town to his house! and then it all happened, also with S as well =/

None of them lasted but m has just stopped speaking to me so i've given up on that but tbh.. he does have a girlfriend atm.. and maybe he just doesn't like me anymore.. oh well :)

i'm currently single because of my boyfriend dumping me or we broke up... haha and atm there's a guy in my sights :) luckily he likes me back.. or atleast i think he does. haha i mean c'mon ifthis isn't a sign what is, "i really like you".? haha he's very nice to me and its weird how we met.. it was during the two weeks when i was ill and we just got talking.. :) then we met. which couldn't have been better tbh...

another thing that i've recognised today would hav to be... that lifes to short to spend it in one place. i've decided today that before im 19 i will hav the knowledge of getting a visa for the USA for the max of a year, so that later on in life i can live there for a little :) i do have the other dreams of becoming a star and moving to russia etcetara.. but for now i'll take it one step at a time.. and thats my first step. :)

whats happened today...
haha Science live... omgsh i fell asleep THREE TIMES! there were four lecturers and then there was the examiner's tips etc and i fell asleep... except from the last one.. man that was funny. the women was black (not being racist at all just describing the women) and very tall, she was a physacist :) and she had the dreams of travelling to the moon. she really never shut up or ever slowed down..imagine trying to listen to say french oral listening but x30! or even 100! i'm not kidding it really did keep me awake :)

anyways off to eat and find out if my bro has broke his arm :D
comment please :) xxx

Betrayal it's not easy to take

Have you ever been betrayed by a friend or family member? =/ well i felt like such an idiot the other day... i tell my brother to shut his mouth but he doesn't and he goes and tells my mum everything i've been up too behind her back while she's been at work etc... and we were at a pizza joint as well, (domino's in sunnyhill)! i was appaulled by the fact i trusted a family member for him to not tell anyone.. i tell only one other person in my life everything i've been through and that's my bffl but don't you think we should all have more than one person in your teenage lifee you can trust? im watching the most shocking film i've seen in years... "Taken" this mans trusted his friend and he turned on him.. truth is that you can't really trust anyone in the world... not even if it were christ. everyone eventually loses someone's trust.. no one's perfect i've learned and that everyone makes mistakes but hopefully not the major ones that could change something important in your life or something.. anyways im off to bed now so i'll update tomoro after sciense live or whenever i next get the chance :)
good night y'all xx