Arguements

i'm so pissed of non stop about arguments. i have headache after headache because of my boyfriend. tonight, well... lets just say i shouted at him. and he said sorry which is ok. but still didn't get away with the fact no matter how many times i say i don't want to get drunk he orders me to? ok i may have said earlier to him i wanted to. but that was only because i was pissed off and would say anything that was in my head. and instantly i thought because i had a glass of beer that i'd down it because i was pissed off with chris and i'd only just seen what he'd done to piss me off, so without thinking i just did it.
He makes me so mad sometimes. i don't think he realises how much he affects me in certain ways. it was nice of him after a little while on the phone with him that he wrote he was talking to his amazing gf. which made me smile. still didn't help the fact i was getting a MAJOR headache from shouting at him.
i'm a shit girlfriend.