its getting pathetic and even i know that. but recently its not even my heart tellign me to go for him its my logic. a couple of nights ago i was at his and i slept there. he asked me over because he wanted me to be the one to talk to. not his best mate but me. i felt honoured but at the same time didn't want to be there. thinking about it, i think deep down i didn't think he wanted me there either. for the reason we have history and its not ever gonna be just me and him as friends. i have a strong feeling about him. and its not love. its just this changing thoughts over how he is with me. its all so different. he told he me that as well. which makes me wonder what it is.
then recently, he posted on facebook "theres this person i can't get out of my head :s no fair xxxx" to me that could mean anyone. to him, he knows exactly who its about. its gonna play on my mind because yes i am paranoid. i'm not perfect but theres still gonna be that feeling of him wanting someone else. which now brings me to what happened thursday night. i was in town with alex, kristian and chris lawn. he walked out of the bus station with another girl. elise :(
he told me on friday when he asked me round that he didn't do anything with her. i want to believe him. i kinda do but at the same time. that facebook status could be about her.
maybe i should leave this all behind? please bloggers read this and give me some advice? :(
ciao...xoxo
1 comment:
I think you did have something amazing with Chris but now you're trying to get it back and it doesn't look like it's there.
It's going to take a while to fix your broken heart obviously, but in my opinion you should stop trying to get him back and start trying to get over your heartbreak.
That's just my opinion though, do what you want obv :)
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