Christopher Bunce

how can i annoy you when you expect me to drop something when you've said "jacob's drulling all over your fb" surely from your POV that means he's bothered?
then he says
Christopher Tod
nothing just dont tell me anything i dont wanna know

11:15pmMe
what you on about?

like what?

11:15pmChristopher Tod
nothink forget i mentiond it

he thinks somethings going on...just like on saturday when i thought he had something going on with girls at Jordan muggleton's party...yeah jordan is this guy rosa nearly got with. but yes like im saying chris must care somewhat if he is saying thingss like that?
maybe he's not so heartless after all?
but then he goes and puts on his msn "does not take much to piss me off but you just don't know when to quit"

since i've been in his life i wonder if he realises he could get rid of me completel yet he still doesn't? so surely there it shows he's still trying to think of what to do?

we're supposed to b giving each others stuff back tomoro but right now i dont think that will happen at all. tbh he doesn't want to see me.i dont want to see him.
i called him earlier and said "do you like pissing me off?" because he'd put something on facebook that'd came through to my phone he then asked me to call him so i did and he explained it wasn't him. fair enough.
we'd both had rather good days...or so i said. only person i could think about was him. from the moment i got up. couldn't go anywhere without being reminding me of him. i went to town and was so afraid f seeing him... and i dont know why.
he's made that much of an impact on me im scared of going to college. smiling is difficult atm because he, even after treating me like shit, still made me smile with the things he said.

will i actually ever be able to let go of the fact that you have fucked me up so much i can't seem to get you out of my head. you know how i feel about you. but at the same time i hate you, you make me cry at the worst possible moments.
you said to me "go and live your life" im trying to, but i want you there beside me. i want to be able to be there for yu when you cry cause, god knows why but you cried in front of me when i asked you to read my other blog and yu ripped it up. this was the third time you nearly broke my heart. you've still not managed to do it fully. and i told you how today as well. so go ahead and do it already.

break my heart and this will all be over.
i can live my life hating you. loathing you for the very thing i'm scared you would do to me every time you went out with mike. do you know how it feels to have your heart broken because it fucking hurts.

just know that i dont piss you off for the fun of it. i do it cause i care. i love you for fucks sake and you can't see that? i wouldn' let it go becaus it bothered you all i wanted to say was "all i want is you, you know that" because its the truth.

please put me out of my misery or atleast tell me you want me. its your decision now.

sorry.