only a quickie ^_^

i've recently found something out that i'm not proud of.
i thought that something was always right but now i'm always going to have doubts about it because its just told me i'm positive.
i now need to wait and see on saturday whats going to happen with me and chris because he's recently asked to have some time alone which tbh i can understand. i just hope he will turn back around and want to carry on with me. i'm in this deep so i might as well carry on because lets face it i've never been one to give up a fight this easily. i love him and i can honestly say i feel humiliated for having to tell him about whats happened with the test. because i never in the world thought i had it because i trusted the first test before i got with chris.
but yes i take all the blame for it now. because i know he didn't give it to me. he was tested before me and i believe him. plus i've not been with anyone else since reid. so reid gave it me.
from everything that i thought was ok may now be in jepody. i hope you can see past all this and we can work on through.
yesterday was a mistake for having a go i know you were just working and concerntrating. it makes me smile how professional you are.


ciao...xoxo

i love you and i will never lie to you again xxx