yes brit awards 10.15 on sunday! :D

As much as i don't want to admit it i think i might be in a dead end relationship.
Chris confirmed that if i want this relationship he's seeing it as a fun one. he knows i want a serious relationship one that will progress into moving in together. things like that. but how come he says stupid things like the other day when we got back together. I want to have kids with you and us live together. why does he take all these things back and say he wants to see this as fun? god only knows. but i'm going to talk to him tonight about it.

the dreaded three letter sentence.

for saying you can say it out of force of habit just proves that you can say it without meaning it.

Cei Cei && Miles

This girl just doesn't know when to quit. 
He doesn't know when to give up.


These two have a relationship that i seem quite familiar with. You try ever so hard to hold on to this magical feeling of butterflies and heavenly happiness. but one of you eventually start to pull away. and will be unfaithful. And the other gets hurts. They fight. and argue. lie. cheat. and mess about. but when is enough enough? As far as i know She has left him so many times he is finally having the epiphany i never could have. He is loving her less. and finding it easier to think about leaving her to her tricks. he is getting hurt everytime she desides she wants "a break".
i'm not happy to stand by and watch him get hurt so i've told him do whatever you want to make yourself happy. but the first sign of her not caring i told him to leave. i think he knows by now when is the breaking off point. because he was nearly pushed right over the edge this week.

I hope you find happiness. its what everyone deserves. 

i know that you can be happy with or without her. 

you can only know yourself, if its worth the risk

to damage your heart from such stupid love.

when she yanks and pulls those hearts strings.

please make sure your happy. and that you do whats best for you.
girls are just a waste of time especially when they don't care as much as you too. :)

be happy!! and dont let anyone walk all over you like she is doing. 

maybe its time we both just gave up, you can't handle me and i can't stomach how much you hurt me. <3

Heels

i want to be able to walk in heels. 

i'm happy but i want to rip your hair out.

Somethings not quite right

I am not in a happy place right now, i don't know what to say or do.
everything's slowing down, we're constantly just staying in and now its getting regular... i don't like it!

i am really unsteady, about everything he's doing. and what we are like. nothing is perfect but we were close to perfect. now it feels far from it. the foundation is crumbling. i can feel it. he told me i couldn't hugg him last night and he was IN MY BED!? whats that about. luckily i did get to in the end. but i swear if he says that again i'm making him sleep on the floor -.- ...CUNT.
things are not the same as before, and a lot of things are changing really quickly. i can't decide if my hearts slipping away or i'm just making things to pick on?

There's nothing to blog about...

However, I am getting up rather early tomoro so go meet a tattooist  to design my tattoo for my birthday!! :D YES!

Rosa ♥

Rosa

I think the worst thing right now is, she hasn't changed one bit. 
she hasn't grown up. 
she hasn't changed. which isn't a bad thing. i feel like i'm growing up too fast.
why can't she just accept my apology and me and her be friends again?
she has no idea i miss her this much. i still care. and i wish i could take everything i said, to her, back. 
she was the person i couldn't go a day without seeing or speaking to. when we fell out we'd both have apologized within the day.
we borrowed each others clothes. we shared everything. its not her fault. i don't blame her anymore. i blame myself. 
it was this time last year it happened. and i couldn't careless.
never mind a guy being my everything. 
your best friend is your everything. 
the one you laugh about with making your own silly little inside jokes. :')
funny faces.
movie montages.
photo booth fun ♥.
Stupid condom necklaces. 
Holidays together. my god how i miss you :( 
no boy should ever come between two best friends? 
i forgive you :/ it was my fault. everything was last year. 
i hope you read this.