New Years Resolutions

Everyone makes them. New years Resolutions.
What do we make them for?


Well this is the part that makes it so interesting. we set goals for our life every year. known as our resolutions and usually we want to stick to them. They're there for us to aim higher or work towards a better future. 
Last year i set some for myself and completely went against them because i got myself hurt again but due to a Gemini Horoscope i'm actually looking forward to my next year and have high hopes for a relationship i'm working on. 
And something I'm also happy about in the next year, My 18th! :) 
i think its safe to say it'll be a big one for me. but Anyhow. Resolutions are there for us to make ourselves feel better and keep us in a little bubble like quitting smoking to stop you from dying or lung cancer for future etc. 

This year, My Resolutions are...

1. Make an effort to look better.

2.Pay more attention and do the homework at college. Woops.

3. Make LOADS of new friends even though my facebook is over 1'000...

4. Work hard in this relationship, DO NOT FUCK IT UP. lol

5. Homework first not facebook. :')

6. Respect Parents and Friends, etc. again Woops.

7. MOVE OUT OF MUMS HOUSE. ((Priority 1))

8. Dye hair red =D yes i am looking forward to this one!

9. Get tongue pierced.

& finally 10. Be more organised 

p.s. stop being so obsessed with some things. ha.

Chrimblemas ♥

When it comes to this time of year, everyone prepares for one day...well two days if you want to include new year but everyone knows when in December the best holiday to come to mind would be Christmas Day.

I'm no Scrooge but i have to say the past couple of years christmas day has NEVER been a good day or time of the year for me.  But this year is turning out to be a little different. 

I think it might just be slightly different this year :) which is kinda nice. 

Last year i got a laptop, this year... a camera. :D which i'm well looking forward to getting! 

I also get to spend the evening with someone wonderful. Mister You-Know-Who. 

oh yes tomoro should be amazing. 

including Dr Who special. ♥ 

Commmennt!??!???!?!!

Rate out of ten and comment please. this is from a recent shoot with TM models. let me know what you think... there website it in the link bar :) 

Well i'm back!

Oops. i do believe i am back at home. Due to EXTREME weather conditions stupid national express cancelled my coach to beautiful canterbury. so i'm back here and considering i might not go because i could get stranded.
and i'd rather not get stranded for christmas. i'd like to be home!

See You on saturday! Have a Good Chrimblemass!

Hey all you Bloggers. 
I'm leaving tomoro :( not for good no you can't get rid of me that easily. but just to my dads to go visit for the hols. Then should be back for christmas eve day... yes that is a mouthful to say.

Should be a good time away i think. however i will miss everyone who makes me happy here.. not cool.
but i get to visit my daddy and Lisa and Ellie and Blake AND dylan :) 
so i'm happy i get to see them all and catch up and tell them about the things i've been doing etc. 

You don't need to be at a party to be having a good time :) you need a good friend some interesting conversations and a drink in you're hand to have a good time. 
Happiness isn't needed through people or through drinking or music and parties. its found in whatever you enjoy doing.
i have some great friends with amazing ways of cheering me up! 

frickin hell i miss him like crayz :(

I'm actually still going to hope this is a part in you're plan baby to be back with me. :'(
this will only make us stronger.

from now on. focus on me being happy without you x

Dedication to you m'dear♥

Let me show you the amazing Christopher Alan Bunce i fell in love with.

When i first met him he was this stupidly over confident, slightly cocky but a lovely guy.

and i'd not taken a second glance at him after first meeting him. But still managed to find out his name to add him on facebook ;)

Talked to him once, maybe twice. 

Then out of the blue i was at my dads and we started talking through facebook.

Ahh the joys of facebook, matchmaker you must be to SO many people?

But, we took a big liking to each other instantly.

We made plans to go to the cinema on Tues, 5th March 2010.

I never thought we'd be here in 10 months time hopelessly in love with each other.

but i thought, no, this wont go anywhere. Its just a date.

Avatar. 3.30 p.m :) 

Not the most romantic film i must say but it was a film i wanted to go and see, and it was a coincidence he wanted to see it too. ha ha

the film was fantastic and it wasn't until the end that we kissed. 

It wasn't just a kiss...

 It was a moment in my life where i'd found a miracle in the making.

So yes, on with the story.

 The next day i saw him at college and spend break with him while he held my hand and ate :') he he 

Wednesday, 6th March 2010.

He asked me out with an ultimatum. the first day i felt like i could trust him and knew i might for a long time no matter what he did. and i still do.

He lied. i'm still here. he cheated. i'm still here. he's broke my heart. i'm still here.

and i think its safe to say he's still here with me too♥

Specially after last night.

He has this smile where you know he's joking about, the smile that when he's serious. and then the one where you can see he really happy. i've seen them all.

His hair never falls right when he messes with it but when you've been lying down with him then you decide to sit up, his hair looks perfect without him touching it. 

Christopher, has this way of telling you things, he wont ever give a straight answer but he'll make damn well sure you know what he wants you to know and think.

He'll pretend he's fine when you can see something's bothering him.

He's outgoing because he can be. and i love the confidence he builds up and its a wall he hides behind.

If he doesn't like something he'll let you know. 

he is too clever for his own good!

and whether he knows it or not he'll always steal girls hearts.

he's loving, smiley, funny, outgoing, sarcastic, and sweet.

he's everything i could ever dream of. and i've had that. 

It'll come back to me ♥

this will be my last post until i feel as though i'm making progress.

my hearts in a really horrible place nowadays. not because of chris. just because of myself. i've got myself into this mess. i'm gonna stop posting on here until i feel like i'm ready too. i've had my heart broken. trampled on and thrown aside because Chris doesn't know what he wants. i want him back and i thought i could do everything in my power to win him back but tbh. i don't need to win him back. he'll come back when i'm normal me again. this feeling has totally taken over me and its too much. i need to step back and look at whats happened and what damage has been done and see if i can repair it.
Before he can even think of taking me back i need to change for the better and stop letting this take over me like it has been. i've been obsessive, a liar, a cheat. and i hate myself for it. well i hate my old self for it. i will turn everything around but i don't know if it'll get him to come back to me.
I don't know if i'll ever fall out of love with him or if he will fall out of love with me but we'll wait and see.
For now Goodbye readers, and i do hope you see the changed me in a few months times.

And just so you all know, even you christopher.. I do love him with all my heart. i'd do anything for him at the moment. his kisses are bliss and making love to him meant everything to me, it was never just sex. even now after 9 months he's still kind of putting up with me. its amazing what i've put him through and he's still here. it must be love. he said i made him happy once, i'm pretty sure i could make him happy again. Maybe it'll be as a friend. i think i'll always love him. even when i know its too late. which i haven't quite felt the full blown of just yet.
Until i see the day he loves someone else i don't think i'll have it hit me so hard that it'll make me finally say "i've had enough".
I Just need to get beetter and maybe he'll come back to me. who knows. lets just wait and see.



Goodbye for now.
Love you all  :)
Ciao...xoxo
You're one and only Jasmin Sund.

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