wonderous times bring wonderous memories on the stage. i've done so many performances now with stagecoach and i've been there for years :) not yet 3 but about 2. tonights performance was amazing. seemed like it didn't last long at all.. and tbh i dont think it did. i got so may people afterwards that i have a good singing voice :) i was so happy and i put my all into it. and the best part was my old stagecoah buddy was there Andi :D i totally and eternally love him he's amazing. always lively and always good to have a laugh with :)
well end of the week must say i'm pooped but my weekend has been rather amazing :) yesterday was fun round at C's and had fun :) then friday night at rosa's drinking vodka :D :P
then today with stagecoach and town :) what a good two days to finish off the week.
big news i wont be doing a blog for about a week after this following sat until sat evening the following. cause i'm going to italy i will tell you about everyday! i promise and cross my heart and hope to die stick a needle in my eye..*ouch*
anyways finish on wednesday then seeing C on wednesday and thursday woop woop :)
lovely writing tonight cause i missed out two days as C stated to me yesterday.. :P haha yes he reads this XD
ayways i'm off nighty night
Chao xoxo
Monday, March 30, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Music comp? :) x
ok well i'm in school atm working on my music compositon. boring as shit. and its supposed to be on a musical! i've made it as if there was a musical called "Anastacia" :) and i've made a song for that. and i still don't have a name for it! its so hard trying to composed something i've never really had a feel for making. i make pop/rock songs nothing really more...well maybe indie more than anything and we're not allowed to do that D= boring as hell.
i have had such a tough time atm with my mum and everyone, mrs sample is like the devil, my mums her evil hench women and then there's the teachers, they're the little minions as well. but yes, last night my mum woke me up at 1:20 in the morning and kept me awake for ages!! shouting at me saying "its too late for you to get into the grammar school, blah blah blah." but i know she's only looking out for me.
tonight i'm going out luckily but nowhere amazingly exciting but ecclesbourne school to look at prom dresses and tux's for me and PF, so i have from 7 til half 9 to do that and find the most drop dead gorgeous dress for prom. i would honestly much rather go with C probably wont be awkward if i ended up slow dancing with him :) ^-^ lol but yeah PF is a good friend so i duno if it will be awkward slow dancing with him haha.
More About boys:
basically i know in my life i've had way too many boyfriends. since last year i've had four guys, slept with one of them and flirted about with the others. i can't honesly say i'm proud. but yes i've had my fair share of guys even if it is half of the little village i live in =/. i haven't slept with loads of people just been out with loads of people. or fallen inlove alot.
what i've learnt from it all is that you just really need to wait until you find someone you really like have fun with them constantly, see each other loads, and most couples have tend to found that they've been friends before as well. my last bf... Jimi i knew him about a week before we went out and it didn't honestly get us anywhere, we didn't know what to expect from each other so it ended in four months. not long i know but yeah..oh well. anyways gotta go end of school i'll update later...
chao! xoxo
i have had such a tough time atm with my mum and everyone, mrs sample is like the devil, my mums her evil hench women and then there's the teachers, they're the little minions as well. but yes, last night my mum woke me up at 1:20 in the morning and kept me awake for ages!! shouting at me saying "its too late for you to get into the grammar school, blah blah blah." but i know she's only looking out for me.
tonight i'm going out luckily but nowhere amazingly exciting but ecclesbourne school to look at prom dresses and tux's for me and PF, so i have from 7 til half 9 to do that and find the most drop dead gorgeous dress for prom. i would honestly much rather go with C probably wont be awkward if i ended up slow dancing with him :) ^-^ lol but yeah PF is a good friend so i duno if it will be awkward slow dancing with him haha.
More About boys:
basically i know in my life i've had way too many boyfriends. since last year i've had four guys, slept with one of them and flirted about with the others. i can't honesly say i'm proud. but yes i've had my fair share of guys even if it is half of the little village i live in =/. i haven't slept with loads of people just been out with loads of people. or fallen inlove alot.
what i've learnt from it all is that you just really need to wait until you find someone you really like have fun with them constantly, see each other loads, and most couples have tend to found that they've been friends before as well. my last bf... Jimi i knew him about a week before we went out and it didn't honestly get us anywhere, we didn't know what to expect from each other so it ended in four months. not long i know but yeah..oh well. anyways gotta go end of school i'll update later...
chao! xoxo
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Right Well....Sorry :) <3
Hey guys, sorry about my last entry was pretty crap but mum kinda got angry at me for being on here. lol. so i wasn't honestly able to finish the post... sorry guys :D ^-^ <3
ok right well yesterday i didn't have time to post an entry so im doing one this morning instead.
yesterday was very up and down tbh. i think through the day it was great but the evening/afternoon was shit. my mum as soon as i got in the car started shouting at me and i felt like shit as it is, she's asking constantly to do my homework. i'm doing it but of course she's making it so much worse by shouting at me! but we managed to have a sit down and talk about everything last night til about twelve :( so i'm so tired this morning...
i literally hate the fact my mums cracking down on me as well as my bloody work. but i have more good things to kind of level the balance out.
anyways i'm leaving soon and i wana talk about C.
C is amazingly nice :) it almost feels like its to good to be true! haha. but it's good :) i'm hopefully going to see him on saturday to his house =D which will be nice.
i feel like we have some great funny moments, kinda like on sunday we went to the cinema and i meant to say popcorn but i said smopcorn mixing the words from "smell of popcorn" haha
i do honestly feel as though we have some great times together :) i remember yesterday or sunday him saying i was beautiful and thinking of what he'd said later that day about how he'll call people "darling" and "hun" to make it seem more exciting! so i was like.. i wish he actually thought that, and i said was it meant to be like that and he said "no" i was kinda like "Nawww! ^-^" :) so alls good in that departmeant. and now i gotta goooo
and comment please people :D
chao xoxo
ok right well yesterday i didn't have time to post an entry so im doing one this morning instead.
yesterday was very up and down tbh. i think through the day it was great but the evening/afternoon was shit. my mum as soon as i got in the car started shouting at me and i felt like shit as it is, she's asking constantly to do my homework. i'm doing it but of course she's making it so much worse by shouting at me! but we managed to have a sit down and talk about everything last night til about twelve :( so i'm so tired this morning...
i literally hate the fact my mums cracking down on me as well as my bloody work. but i have more good things to kind of level the balance out.
anyways i'm leaving soon and i wana talk about C.
C is amazingly nice :) it almost feels like its to good to be true! haha. but it's good :) i'm hopefully going to see him on saturday to his house =D which will be nice.
i feel like we have some great funny moments, kinda like on sunday we went to the cinema and i meant to say popcorn but i said smopcorn mixing the words from "smell of popcorn" haha
i do honestly feel as though we have some great times together :) i remember yesterday or sunday him saying i was beautiful and thinking of what he'd said later that day about how he'll call people "darling" and "hun" to make it seem more exciting! so i was like.. i wish he actually thought that, and i said was it meant to be like that and he said "no" i was kinda like "Nawww! ^-^" :) so alls good in that departmeant. and now i gotta goooo
and comment please people :D
chao xoxo
Monday, March 23, 2009
That Daily Buzz of Tango?
haha well today has been an eventful day, worrying but eventful. i had things running everywhere in my mind today but i managed to get layed back as the day passed with C holding my hand walking through town :) i felt so calm with him and i'm never like that wen with say someone like tall J or AP it's weird how im diffo with him :) but its a good weird. i have to say a rather funny part is when we were going to get the cinema tickets and i said random thinking the word "Popcorn" but yet i blurted out "smopcorn" who can have that anywhere near the sound of popcorn!? well yeah anyways the day turned out to be a sucess in my happiness. not much else has happened today besides being with C for almost the whole day!
i must say we had some rather good laughs about today as well!
i must say we had some rather good laughs about today as well!
Sunday, March 22, 2009
MyPast...x
listen up cause this is probably the very brief interview into my life of it all. basically i was born and lived in edinburgh, but i only lived there for a year. my dad is from newcastle which is where we moved to next. he left my mum for a younger women when i was like 2/3. and i lived in newcastle in a wonderful place called blaydon burn on bessie terrace for 10 years :) until my mum met anthony, who lived here. i had to leave my school behind which i'd only been at for a year cause my other school closed down (i'll explain that later) and moved here to derby. i was 11 by the time we'd fully moved down here and i started derby moor community school, where i got bullied until i left at the start of year 8, in the easter hols cause of a girl that was a bitch. i was home schooled for about a year and a half then my mum decided i was going back into school to face reality and to get good grades, which is how i'm in derby high school for girls now. i managed to start school on the 11th of june 2007 on a monday, i remember so well cause it was the day before i turned 14! :) and i got a great welcome into the school by on the second day setting a record of having two birthday cakes brought in cause of my birthday. then pretty much everything from there went down hill. more bitchyness started and i just grandually thought i can't be arsed and took it. so i've put up with it for so long and now i'm finishing up with my GCSE's and going on to do A level and then uni =) so far i've probably had a fair share of my ups and downs, and i think maybe more downs than ups but i'm sure the future will turn that around some how :) thats the roughest outline i've given to anyone so read it if you wont and comment if you like or wont to know anyyyy more about the little inbetween things :)
goodnigth all! chao xoxo
goodnigth all! chao xoxo
TheBurningRushOfFury!
oh god don't get me started on today! P has ticked me off so much i felt like punching him, HARD! ok it was never planned me going into town to see him which is probably why its turned out like this. i arranged to see tall J and AP but not him. in the end i saw quite alot of my mates haha. but thing is being with Ro and seeing them didn't help her situation, she felt like the other people saw more of me than her! and that me and her hadn't had enough time with each other so i felt so selfish! but i met up with 1, 2, 3, 4...5 people in town and Ro was one of them of course! :D i had Ollie to look after pretty much all day anyways so that made things worse tbh =/ but we were shopping for mothers day tomoro. so it was kind of essential.
derby match today was craaap...! and tbh so was the rugby! lol ireland winning... big mistake in fate there! haha nothing amazing has happened today tbh so i'll leave you with that to ponder on. so goodnight and talk tomoro! :D chao xoxo
derby match today was craaap...! and tbh so was the rugby! lol ireland winning... big mistake in fate there! haha nothing amazing has happened today tbh so i'll leave you with that to ponder on. so goodnight and talk tomoro! :D chao xoxo
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Not Much To Say
right well tonight there's not much to actually say sept the fact im no longer single :) which is a start. another thing is im practically failing school, in general and im gonna die if i don't get good grades for my exams. cause then i can't go to the sixth form i wont. and i dont want to end up going joseph wright ¬_¬. but yeah i'm not single anymore thanks to C, i think we had a rather weird night but still managed to be given a goodbye kiss with the best friend standing there! haha. tonights not really been as amazing as i've made it out to be on my facebook but it was a good night. dancing with one of russia's ballet academys lucky enough, in a theatre play called "Coppelia" the most amazing dances there. of course all russian and all ballerina's. Lol. i've never seen anything more beautiful and graceful put into such a kid like story line haha. but it really was a grand experience even if i did only get to do it once.
i got home about three hours ago, i think. and i've not done much since then but msn and facebook and chat to some of my cool ass friends :) oh yes... the book im reading, i must say if you're a big fan of reading bio's then read Darius Danesh's "sink or swim MY STORY" i've only read up to page 16 and already im like i want to read more, but i thought, no. i need to do my blog. so here i am.
i think today's been quite unusual in the way of i dont feel relaxed at all because i have several hours of coursework to do and only two days to do it in! i'm pretty pooped so i'm gonna go to bed and dream about whatever i can :) i will write tomoro when i have time. and if i dont i will make sure i do the next day which would be sunday! night night
Chao xoxo
i got home about three hours ago, i think. and i've not done much since then but msn and facebook and chat to some of my cool ass friends :) oh yes... the book im reading, i must say if you're a big fan of reading bio's then read Darius Danesh's "sink or swim MY STORY" i've only read up to page 16 and already im like i want to read more, but i thought, no. i need to do my blog. so here i am.
i think today's been quite unusual in the way of i dont feel relaxed at all because i have several hours of coursework to do and only two days to do it in! i'm pretty pooped so i'm gonna go to bed and dream about whatever i can :) i will write tomoro when i have time. and if i dont i will make sure i do the next day which would be sunday! night night
Chao xoxo
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
The Difference Being My Lack In ****
That four letter word people use so often in a day. it becomes meaningless more and more its used.. i think i've said it so many times that now i just can't say it because people use it like a hanky, just say it like it means nothing. a guy today told me he loved me, i was shocked thats all i can say tbh i feel sorry for him. 1 because i don't honestly feel the same and 2 because he's just such a nice guy. but thumbs up for everything else right now cause things seem to be heading up from here for me (Y)
right what happened today...
this morning was lacking in anything exciting happening. i was dog tired for being up so late and i still haven't finished my bloody essay on educating rita! i also had to text R's guy so i had someone to text today.. but T finally got his free texts for the month so had him to text up until about two until tall J texted me, gladly i texted back and ofc we had a random little chat haha all day i've been pondering about guys.. duno why but i just have been! talked to jenny all day about guys... whaty hers was like etc and ofc my own problems with em because tall J, i have it in for him which aint good.. because he's friends with my ex and best friends with the dude that R likes. But C, now there's a diffo story :) seeing him tomoro and tbh i can't wait. only going into town but its better than nothing :) or i wouldn't have been able to see him in two weeks! awful i know but i am quite busy these days with school work and it is my GCSE year.. :/ and moving around alot. i don't know whats gonna happen tomoro but i'm just glad i'll be able to see him.
oh yeah and the weekend god i have nothing to do everyones all of a sudden busy! even P is! and thats only because i pissed him off ¬_¬.. what a prick.
oh and thank you for the comment on my last blog basically yes i have had it happen to me.. about twice. i know sounds harsh but you honestly can't help falling in love these days, it all happens so fast with people who kinda just know they're soul mates but both times were totally never gonna happen cause the first dude lived in oxford and the other lived in conventry! so no surprise it wasn't gonna happen! thanks for the comments! commet again if you wish but for now chao! xoxo
right what happened today...
this morning was lacking in anything exciting happening. i was dog tired for being up so late and i still haven't finished my bloody essay on educating rita! i also had to text R's guy so i had someone to text today.. but T finally got his free texts for the month so had him to text up until about two until tall J texted me, gladly i texted back and ofc we had a random little chat haha all day i've been pondering about guys.. duno why but i just have been! talked to jenny all day about guys... whaty hers was like etc and ofc my own problems with em because tall J, i have it in for him which aint good.. because he's friends with my ex and best friends with the dude that R likes. But C, now there's a diffo story :) seeing him tomoro and tbh i can't wait. only going into town but its better than nothing :) or i wouldn't have been able to see him in two weeks! awful i know but i am quite busy these days with school work and it is my GCSE year.. :/ and moving around alot. i don't know whats gonna happen tomoro but i'm just glad i'll be able to see him.
oh yeah and the weekend god i have nothing to do everyones all of a sudden busy! even P is! and thats only because i pissed him off ¬_¬.. what a prick.
oh and thank you for the comment on my last blog basically yes i have had it happen to me.. about twice. i know sounds harsh but you honestly can't help falling in love these days, it all happens so fast with people who kinda just know they're soul mates but both times were totally never gonna happen cause the first dude lived in oxford and the other lived in conventry! so no surprise it wasn't gonna happen! thanks for the comments! commet again if you wish but for now chao! xoxo
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Each Breathe Taken
toes curl with passion, my voice carried through the empty house, chest pulsing vibrating as though i couldn't control it.
i never wanted it to end, if i could've stayed with that moment forever... i knew it wouldn't have lasted but oh well all i can say is i've had experience with that sort of thing and it know how to act once you stop talking.. about yesterdays blog my god i was in trouble with my mum.. i try and find myself by being the rebel behind my mothers back and i mostly get away with it.. until of course when he told her ¬_¬
the reason he told her was cause i called him a little bastard.. its cause he is most of the time to me.. so he told her about C, M, and S, and almost about having to drag him round everywhere for them..
S lives in stafford so i took him on the train...
M lived in chello so i took him on the bus into town then from town to his house! and then it all happened, also with S as well =/
None of them lasted but m has just stopped speaking to me so i've given up on that but tbh.. he does have a girlfriend atm.. and maybe he just doesn't like me anymore.. oh well :)
i'm currently single because of my boyfriend dumping me or we broke up... haha and atm there's a guy in my sights :) luckily he likes me back.. or atleast i think he does. haha i mean c'mon ifthis isn't a sign what is, "i really like you".? haha he's very nice to me and its weird how we met.. it was during the two weeks when i was ill and we just got talking.. :) then we met. which couldn't have been better tbh...
another thing that i've recognised today would hav to be... that lifes to short to spend it in one place. i've decided today that before im 19 i will hav the knowledge of getting a visa for the USA for the max of a year, so that later on in life i can live there for a little :) i do have the other dreams of becoming a star and moving to russia etcetara.. but for now i'll take it one step at a time.. and thats my first step. :)
whats happened today...
haha Science live... omgsh i fell asleep THREE TIMES! there were four lecturers and then there was the examiner's tips etc and i fell asleep... except from the last one.. man that was funny. the women was black (not being racist at all just describing the women) and very tall, she was a physacist :) and she had the dreams of travelling to the moon. she really never shut up or ever slowed down..imagine trying to listen to say french oral listening but x30! or even 100! i'm not kidding it really did keep me awake :)
anyways off to eat and find out if my bro has broke his arm :D
comment please :) xxx
i never wanted it to end, if i could've stayed with that moment forever... i knew it wouldn't have lasted but oh well all i can say is i've had experience with that sort of thing and it know how to act once you stop talking.. about yesterdays blog my god i was in trouble with my mum.. i try and find myself by being the rebel behind my mothers back and i mostly get away with it.. until of course when he told her ¬_¬
the reason he told her was cause i called him a little bastard.. its cause he is most of the time to me.. so he told her about C, M, and S, and almost about having to drag him round everywhere for them..
S lives in stafford so i took him on the train...
M lived in chello so i took him on the bus into town then from town to his house! and then it all happened, also with S as well =/
None of them lasted but m has just stopped speaking to me so i've given up on that but tbh.. he does have a girlfriend atm.. and maybe he just doesn't like me anymore.. oh well :)
i'm currently single because of my boyfriend dumping me or we broke up... haha and atm there's a guy in my sights :) luckily he likes me back.. or atleast i think he does. haha i mean c'mon ifthis isn't a sign what is, "i really like you".? haha he's very nice to me and its weird how we met.. it was during the two weeks when i was ill and we just got talking.. :) then we met. which couldn't have been better tbh...
another thing that i've recognised today would hav to be... that lifes to short to spend it in one place. i've decided today that before im 19 i will hav the knowledge of getting a visa for the USA for the max of a year, so that later on in life i can live there for a little :) i do have the other dreams of becoming a star and moving to russia etcetara.. but for now i'll take it one step at a time.. and thats my first step. :)
whats happened today...
haha Science live... omgsh i fell asleep THREE TIMES! there were four lecturers and then there was the examiner's tips etc and i fell asleep... except from the last one.. man that was funny. the women was black (not being racist at all just describing the women) and very tall, she was a physacist :) and she had the dreams of travelling to the moon. she really never shut up or ever slowed down..imagine trying to listen to say french oral listening but x30! or even 100! i'm not kidding it really did keep me awake :)
anyways off to eat and find out if my bro has broke his arm :D
comment please :) xxx
Betrayal it's not easy to take
Have you ever been betrayed by a friend or family member? =/ well i felt like such an idiot the other day... i tell my brother to shut his mouth but he doesn't and he goes and tells my mum everything i've been up too behind her back while she's been at work etc... and we were at a pizza joint as well, (domino's in sunnyhill)! i was appaulled by the fact i trusted a family member for him to not tell anyone.. i tell only one other person in my life everything i've been through and that's my bffl but don't you think we should all have more than one person in your teenage lifee you can trust? im watching the most shocking film i've seen in years... "Taken" this mans trusted his friend and he turned on him.. truth is that you can't really trust anyone in the world... not even if it were christ. everyone eventually loses someone's trust.. no one's perfect i've learned and that everyone makes mistakes but hopefully not the major ones that could change something important in your life or something.. anyways im off to bed now so i'll update tomoro after sciense live or whenever i next get the chance :)
good night y'all xx
good night y'all xx
Saturday, March 14, 2009
BFFL =)
My bffl is the best thing thats happened to me in the past two years and i love her to pieces :) tonight is usually the night when we have our weekly sleepover and our lovely little chats thats never get old.
I really was a mess when i first started seeing her again after leaving the school i was at with her, i was an emo and i mean the really idiot kid that was about 13 and slit my wrists. anyways yeah my best friend is always there for me. . . we had one of our really rather nice chats tonight about the next couple of months, both of our lives are going to take a massive step into the world of "A level" ... Great, i know. lol right well we were both on about how we're probably going to go seperate colleges and then maybe different uni's but no matter what we've both made sure that we end up going travelling together when we're 20, we were also talking about relationships.. gosh i couldn't be in a worse sort of one... :( i'll talk more about it tomoro... im knackered and its like half 2 in the morning! so night night :)
I really was a mess when i first started seeing her again after leaving the school i was at with her, i was an emo and i mean the really idiot kid that was about 13 and slit my wrists. anyways yeah my best friend is always there for me. . . we had one of our really rather nice chats tonight about the next couple of months, both of our lives are going to take a massive step into the world of "A level" ... Great, i know. lol right well we were both on about how we're probably going to go seperate colleges and then maybe different uni's but no matter what we've both made sure that we end up going travelling together when we're 20, we were also talking about relationships.. gosh i couldn't be in a worse sort of one... :( i'll talk more about it tomoro... im knackered and its like half 2 in the morning! so night night :)
Thursday, March 12, 2009
The best thing in the world
My adrenaline is always pumping when i'm on stage.. i've alwayed loved the way a dancer moves or the way a singer harmonises etc. but it's always been a dream of mine to make it in the spotlight, its half a shame that i never really step up to everyone elses talent because some people have grades in singing and drama. Me, i have my mirror as my audience, my hairbrush as my mic, and the ballet lessons i had as a child. so nothing big's ever really headed my way besides the fact i've auditioned for 'Britains got talent' and 'Xfactor' didn't make it through to either. but oh well there's stil lhopefully chance for me yet :)
It's whenever i see a west end show or even just someone people on a stage that i realise acting and singing is just a beautiful thing, you just here that song, then the spotlight hits you and then you're gone. You just see them giving it their all also that little twinkle in their eye just makes the whole production so worth while watching.
Comment please :) xxx
It's whenever i see a west end show or even just someone people on a stage that i realise acting and singing is just a beautiful thing, you just here that song, then the spotlight hits you and then you're gone. You just see them giving it their all also that little twinkle in their eye just makes the whole production so worth while watching.
Comment please :) xxx
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